Can’t get up. Cat under doona. So sad.

I’ve been exercising as usual but not posting much on account of it being my 50th birthday in the last few days. I’ve been gutsing on cake and gorging on various takeaway foods as is tradition (on my birthday anyway!). My colleagues gave me some lovely gifts and a very tall cake and made me feel special. Fam were a bit hit and miss. I do feel a little different in a way that’s hard to describe. You can be in denial about getting older as much as you like, but something about hitting a half century hits different. This is going to sound a bit silly, but it almost feels like a very faint shadow over me that others can’t really see, but I know is there. I’m still the same positive, happy and determined me, but there’s just this… thing. I’m not doing too well at describing it, but it’s an odd feeling, that’s for sure.

All the chores are done before midday… is, is this what it’s like to be normal. I’ve vacuumed, mopped, put washing on, done the dishes, and I’ve even changed the sheets, and dusted.

Edit- Ok so maybe not normal… I am an all at once sort of person though, I like to either get everything done in one go or not bother at all.

pakidge #1 has arrived. Potato in air fryer now.

It is lighter than I expected, which is good as it will make it easy to put in and out of a cupboard and gives me more options as to where I can put it.

Bloody hell, most of last week was this morass of depression and bleakness and everything seemed doomed, but I’m all positive and light and energetic today despite being up till 4am? What gives, brain? Is it really just the sun??? (It can’t just be vitamin D because I take seriously big doses)

Sheets all being washed and dried, haven’t started packing yet but have a bit of a list. Much easier packing for warm climates. Must get to Leo’s this arvo to get some gifts, and use up what’s left in the fridge tonight. Looks like it’ll be kale pasta sauce.

Pancakes!

there were 2 comments in a row which talked about cake then I wanted cake so I walked to the supermarket to get cake and now I have cake

I have been working out to do with the food I need to use up, and have realised I have all the ingredients for a great pavlova. Which is really tempting, but then I would have to eat an entire pavlova, which is probably not the healthiest idea. I guess I’ll stick with the quiche and cakes for the freezer plan.

Ted Cat using his sex doll as a pillow

I keep getting distracted by my sparkly nails today.

My adhd diagnostic appointment has been moved from the 23rd of November to this Thursday the 19th if October!!! Work is accommodating me for it and I am so stoked!! Nervous cause what if somehow despite my research, and doing the DSM5 myself, they tell me I don’t have ADHD but genuinely so keen to officially be diagnosed and take further steps to be the best me ever. Thanks to the bank of mum and dad for helping me with the fee a month sooner then expected.

This sore throat really sucks. It seems to have progressed to my ear now, so razor blades in my ear and my throat when I swallow. Still negative though.

Edit. Thanks all, doctors appointment tomorrow morning sorted.

Just back from first aid prac training - was a little worried about the cats as I usually don’t leave them for more than three hours and the last time I did there were worried little faces to greet me.
However this time Zooks was basking in the sun in the front window and Sammi on my bed, and they graciously accepted the offer of food. 😂.
Oh and they’re expressing their displeasure by swatting at each other, but ah well.

donut and dixie cup havin a lil snooze

I plated up a giant piece of cake for myself and MissGod walks into kitchen, pokes me in the stomach and says, “feeding the little one ?”

I fucking died…