im sad and have noone to talk to about it… except for wifey, and two friends… but this is about one of the two friends, and they are friends with each other too… and telling wifey about it always leads to me feeling worse because she’ll say clever things like “just talk to him about it” …
i dont want to talk to him about it, that would mean i would have to acknowledge the problem and address it directly.
what a silly way to deal with emotional turmoil, am i right?
no i know im not right… i wouldnt be posting this crap if i knew i was right. i know im wrong and i should talk to him about it but i just cant ;_;
yeah… i know you must be thinking i need therapy and you would be absolutely right, except i hate going to the doctor and them being a special type of doctor for the mind and such doesnt make my detestation for docs any better.
sorry this really isnt about me being transfem. i AM transfem, but that doesnt have anything to do with the rest of it… except i cut off most people i knew even before i transitioned… just because they would no longer be part of my daily life. which sucks but i guess i did this to myself so serves me right.
anyway, im sad, tired, nostalgic and have no point. thanks for reading ._.
Sadposts go here! This is a safe space to vent and let it out. Your experience is valid.
I can’t speak much to the interpersonal stuff, but if you’re able to find a good lgbtq experienced therapist, it can be really helpful. I also hate doctors and the healthcare system in general (despite being a nurse), but often queer therapists will be able to relate because of shared life experience.
https://www.outcarehealth.org/outlist/
This is a good resource to find lgbt friendly providers in your area. They require a training to be on the list - it’s nothing extensive, but it does help ensure the providers listed understand the basics of problems lgbt patients face.
I hope you are able to talk to someone that can help. Good luck - you got this!