Go read through my posts if you want some more early days experiences.

Have I got news for you…

Thank you ❤️

Awe! Thank you so much, rose!

I keep all my old photos, every once in a while I’ll be talking to someone about things and decide I want to see a chronically depressed cadaver go through the motions of… I don’t even really know what… just tons of pictures.

I got pictures of me blackout drunk staring disdainfully in a mirror, pictures of me trying to feign happiness in hundreds of locations at Disney World, pictures documenting the all day drinking and running through the woods at full bore on a 4 wheeler hoping I’d just smash my skull into a tree and die, the daily fire I would make when it was too dark to keep driving drunk through the woods and spend my nights getting more drunk hoping I’d pass out and get killed by wolves.

Sure, If it was life or death I could find a smile or a happy photo, but almost all of them are stoic at best and I’m going to keep them.

That poor fuck held on for something, and in his misery he gave me a life worth living, and for that he deserves his respect and honors. I cannot hate him or erase him. He hurt for so long, he wanted an undying death, and I myself gave him his wish.

Of course, you should do what is best for you, I just have been diving a bit too far into how the Ship of Theseus problem intersects with my identity and personality here lately and have decided I literally AM a different person and that’s okay and consistent with me being the same person I always was, just with less repression.

“I know we got rid of polling places and redistricted everything for the eighth year creating longer lines than ever in order to disincentivize civil participation by regular people, but those folks over there handing out bottles of water to people waiting in the sun to exercise their rights is rigging elections!”

That is definitely one of the takes of all time

‘cause right now all we have is time, time, time, and someday that time will run out, that’s the only thing we can be absolutely certain about.

10 Things - Paul Baribau

I’m on hormones, just sucks having to deal with the feelings and knowing it’s a waiting game.

At least I’m doing something though.

In between desperate gasping for air worth breathing and times worth living

Pat the Bunny

My brother has an OSRS account he named post rave blues, certainly relatable.

It’s all good there is no advice.

Thank you for the kind words about my writing style. It’s been a new compulsion of mine to document things. Everyone always told me to journal, but I didn’t see the point documenting the things I was desperately seeking any escape from.

I’m definitely lacking the foot ware. Most of my shoes were leather boots, about 5 months ago I branched out and got some khaki sneakers and some white sneakers.

Thanks Ellie, kind of a radical idea that I deserve a life worth living.

I’ll have to remember that

Sounds like the unspoken idea is you name the roach after your ex

the bill in question

I’m not a lawyer, but it is hard to tell from reading that if it means if you mark off one of the numbers it applies, or if you have to have 2 of 3 or what, but since it’s so vague, and most of the laws I’ve seen in that format if one point applies it all applies, I cannot in good faith argue that it won’t be used to target Hispanic people.

Awe, thanks.

I get my glasses from Zenni Optical. I got some more feminine Prescription glasses and feminine sunglasses for $120 usd, they’re cheap enough that I can get random pairs and the virtual try on + feature on phones is amazing, realtime AR the frames on your face, desktop has an okay version that extracts frames from a webcam video and overlays the frames. Helped me pick some out I knew I’d like.

It was as good a time as it could be ☺️

Thanks

What was she supposed to be reformed from? Lashing out at the guardian who lied about her age and abused her with munchausen by proxy to the point of matricide? Something tells me she won’t be a repeat offender.

See, this demonstrates the oppression inherent in the system, only people with economic freedom and the means to bring their own pencil to the ballot box are able to choose to eat ass or silica.

Pepsi Zero is better. Coke Zero started me in the low calorie soda, but I stay for Pepsi.

I’m putting it out there now, cringe will continue to evolve and the feeling will get elaborated and exaggerated until the new version of cringe will basically be imploding into yourself like a black hole or being spaghettified.

I’m actually a fan of Cannibal Corpse, I saw the songs I didn’t recognize and got excited. Turns out there was a new album out though, so it’s not all bad.