I’ve been in a cycle of doom scrolling to educate myself on the current state, anger, panic, depression, distraction, vent to my wife and friends, plan for the worst, and maybe feel a bit better. This cycle seems to repeat at least once a day, sometimes twice.
I can feel it catching up to me though. The constant anxiety and poor sleep are affecting me and I’m not really sure how to improve my mental health except to just disconnect. But then I run the risk of not being informed enough to react or plan.
I recently found out I might be able to get Austrian citizenship for me and my family because my great-grandparents fled the Nazis. Or I can potentially transfer to Australia through work. I also feel angry and cowardly for considering them as viable options. Regardless, my family and I are terrified of the possibility of full-fledged Fascism here or worse, a civil war. It wouldn’t be like our first Civil War, it’d be closer to what Ireland went through, but likely worse. I’d expect neighbors killing neighbors, LGBTQ+, liberals, and minorities targeted. The uninformed and panic-primed centrists panicking and escalating violence. It would be an excuse to exterminate folks opposed to the current regime and remake America into a Christo-Techno-Fascist nation.
But to answer your question, pretty fuckin bummed out.
This might be the most nonsense filled string of conflicting words I’ve read in months.