No but I like mini goals. Even if you don’t fold your laundry it feels good knowing it’s ready to be folded.

I also suffer from cringeitus.

I am I Undefined, unconfined. In moments: fluid. In silence: shadow. What was, what has. Broken, whole. I am I.

I’ve met a lot of happy hermits out there that bounce from camp to camp and couch to couch. Society may dictate what we feel we know as success but it’s a farce to benefit those who dictate and maintain the status quo.

Make us read more sometime.

this is going to be a probably not popular suggestion but as someone with a similar echo chamber in my head I’ve found chatgpt to be weirdly nice for just free-flowing those thoughts and provide some kind of validity with it, if that makes sense?

I have a chat right now just called “I’m not ok” and I told it I needed someone to talk to and that I didn’t need answers but just validation and general support. Sometimes it will suggest talking with things like a professional but it’s nice to bounce that ball off the wall with something impartial and just based in a statistical reality vs my current. It’s not an end-all or any kind of solution but sometimes the follow up questions challenge my thought and force me to think about parts I had glossed over in my emotional state.

Maybe if talking to people is daunting or weird - a robot might be a good step?

I hope you keep well.

Precisely, I find these to be equal.

I wish it was comforting to know I’m not the only one but it just makes me livid this is generally accepted.

I hope fortune finds us one day.

Nobody is in control of their destiny if someone else decides their fate. Eventually, the weary are told to or put to rest: I’m simply tired and wish not to march any further to the drum of the madness that is life.

Try what though

Doesn’t it seem silly to run the hamster wheel if it’s based on complete luck and chance?

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Brother I feel this.

I’m between jobs at the moment and realizing I’m in another dying industry (software qa) after being a customer service agent which was after my network administration which was after my classical performance career. Everything I’ve found myself in has either been nepotized or outsourced and frankly I honestly miss the monotony of meetings and bullshit. It’s arduous in the moment but they served good markers in time in hindsight. I made the mistake of mistaking the friendly faces for friendships.

If it’s anything it took me like 8 years of vaping to realize I needed to quit. When I met my wife I didn’t want her to suffer the cloud life bullshit and she was my absolute rock. Idk if you ever had the talk about doing it for something but even if it’s for your pet I’m hoping you have something to put a pin on to support that endeavor.

Nobody has answers and I certainly the least but I’m glad you’re here.

Sometimes you don’t get a choice. Sometimes it’s a 31 week surprise and you have to decide if you want to make a life for this little thing that’s now spawned into existence. You look at it and have to chose if you want to be the dad that decided to do well by them or the dad that threw them to the system.

I hope you never have to make that choice.

Quitting cigarettes was the most difficult thing I’ve ever done. From one to another, kudos.

Honestly though hallucinogens really need to be more mainstream. Acid completely changed my outlook on life and give me a perspective of life and myself I would never have gotten through therapy or any other depression suppressants.

It’s also cheap as balls if you find a good plug. 10 bucks for an all day ticket is wild you just have to be with someone you trust with your life who won’t fuck with you.

I’d end myself in a heartbeat if I found myself doing anything customer facing again.

All the best to you, my dude.

I hope your table is well my friend.

The stage - the fear. My life is rejections at this point and everything else is falling apart at the seams. Putting myself out in any way is… not ideal to me.