I am not incapable, just afraid of being incapable ig. You handled that matter perfectly, kudos
When you talk about self-improvement you mean becoming more mature, secure etc? Because if so I agree with you and I have to do that work. Thanks for the chat offer, I might take you up on that someday
It’s pretty easy to be attracted to someone and just… keep it professional?
I guess it is. I am just not very used to interacting with women besides my gf, mother and sisters so I just don’t want to mess up due to immaturity or something. I will just follow the reasonable rules of not getting close to other people I am attracted to, not doing drugs without my gf present etc
It’s true that I am not secure, I get a lot of anxiety if I haven’t seen her (not communicated) for some days, and I am a bit of an attention seeker. And that’s something I have to resolve, but it also scares me because people with the same traits as me (maybe magnified) do cheat
think if you are having issues around self control and cheating, then maybe your girlfriend isn’t the one for you. Maybe it’s a sign that there is someone else
I never said I have cheated or even come close to. I have self control issues in other areas such as binge eating when stressed but that’s it
Do you trust yourself to conduct yourself in an ethical manner if you did work there?
I do not. Not because I have actually done something bad, but I probably am a bit more impulsive than the average person due to ADHD, and I also have the anxious attatchment style in the context of the relationship, so I don’t want to be in a situation where I could act out or something. Also I believe in avoiding temptation in contrast to resisting temptation, so it makes sense to me. Of course you can’t always avoid having to interact with an attractive person, but it seems to me like it’s another thing when you go into such a situation knowingly.
I will recommend you some albums:
Camel - Mirage, The Snow Goose
Pink Floyd - The Dark Side of the Moon, Animals, Wish You Were Here
ELP - Tarkus
Is introversion even a real thing? I am starting to believe its burnout from social masking and many of us are just autistic
Watch Cronenberg’s “The Fly”, it’s not jumpscare horror but more psychological and a very good film besides
Shits fucked, I am searching for a software engineer job and I stumbled upon a job listing that offered 50k USD a year. The job wasn’t about actually coding, but about overseeing the training process of an AI that generates code. They will pay you more that x5 of what my teacher parents make in order to train your replacement, it makes me fucking mad
With AI stuff in general I can’t decide if I am excited about the ways it will enable individuals to create their own art that wouldn’t otherwise or just enter doomer mode about how it will fuck shit up under captialism