So for the most part I kinda been quite disconnected from most queer communities, I find it hard to feel like I belong as a trans person. I am just too different? idk y but my experiences seems so different to everyone else but I also lack any true support so that likely doesn’t help.

This last week I was feeling abit better as I was gonna meet up with my family something I dont do often and this would be the first time since I hit some transition goals, so I felt pretty good about things.

But ofc things didnt work as plan, if anything they don’t see me any different and was mostly ignored the whole time. I should of expected this as for the most part they been pretty passive about my whole deal.

This has hurt alot more than I thought it would and more than anything just tired of never being understood or having any friends or anyone to talk to.

I really wanted this to be the turning point for atleast my family like it would of been something but I guess I was too hopefully.

It’s been 7 years and I am still there “son” I am done with them and I think just gonna drop them as much as I can.

But this leaves me very alone, i dont know how to handle this anymore. I’m sorry to post this here I don’t have anywhere else to really be and I just don’t want to be alone…

  • Zee@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
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    11 months ago

    Yea I am def moving away from family and gonna start fresh somewhere else I don’t like it where I am atm. I always found is so hard to find other folks tho and connect to them so kinda afraid of just being alone really. I find it hard to feel or think that I can actually be loved but I guess I just got to hang in there

    • LegionEris [she/her]@feddit.nl
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      11 months ago

      I promise that it is so, so much easier to make connections as yourself. I was much the same as you. I was very isolated as a child and taught nothing good about engaging with people and the world. I didn’t have real friends for more than a decade. Now that I just get to live as myself, people love me. I have genuine friends I can trust and count on. People like me quickly where they used to kinda come around to me slowly and keep me at a distance. Changing yourself changes your world. Just go be yourself with confidence. People like yourself and who like you will be drawn to you.